I Will Be Blogging More Often I Promise and Other Stories…


Okay, so I know it’s a far too long since my last post and I keep promising to get back into a regular blogging routine. But I really will this time. I pinky promise. (You can’t break a pink promise. If you do, it makes you the worst person in the world, or so I am told.)

If I had posted this a little bit closer to New Year, this would have been your standard customary reflection on 2015 and hopes for 2016 post. (I’m not making resolutions this year because I never keep them and well,if you want to change, why wait til New Years to do it?)  But as it happens, life as usual got in the way and in between spending time with friends and family during the Festive Season and attempting to be a responsible adult, (Huh? When did THAT happen?) I just never got round to it until now. As New Year was two weeks ago, my original post no longer seems like it would be relevant so now you have this (very) self-indulgent post instead.

So, what have I been doing in the months that I’ve been neglecting this blog?

Well, mostly I’ve been really busy with work (the run up to Christmas was crazy busy) and I’ve been working on my current novel as well as a short story (that I still need to finish). I also spent November completing NaNoWriMo. I actually managed to reach 50,000 words whilst having a full time job. Despite the fact that pretty much all of those 50,000 words are pretty awful and some of the worst I’ve ever written, (up there with my teenage emo poetry phase) I consider this to be my biggest achievement of 2015 (aside from not dying) because I honestly didn’t think I’d have the energy to write 50,000 words whilst working 35 hours a week. But I managed it (it made me crazier than the past NaNos I participated in) and although the words I wrote were awful, (I’m not being modest here. I honestly can’t look at it) I’ve written 50,000 words of a story that wouldn’t have been written if I hadn’t done it.

So you see whilst I went on a rather longer hiatus, (longer than I originally intended) I was still busy writing. It just meant that I spent more time on my writing projects and actually get closer to finishing something. (That’s my main goal. Not just this year but in general.) I guess it didn’t help that I had a chronic case of blog block (Yeah, yeah I know what you’re thinking. Writer’s Block is just an excuse writers use when they can’t be bothered to write.) and had far too many ideas as to what direction I wanted this blog to go in. (The fact that it never had a strong focus to begin with probably didn’t help.) But now I’ve got a pretty good idea on the sort of topics I want to talk about and now I have plenty of time to actually post on a regular basis once I’ve gotten back into a routine. (I may even post some short stories on here at some point. Ssh! I’m not promising anything though.)

So what else has happened since I last posted on here?

Well, 2016 did not start as smoothly as I would have liked. My fixed term contract did not get extended, so I am now officially unemployed. The downside to this is, apart from worrying about money, that I now have too much free time (and there is such a thing as too much free time. Trust me. This blog is living proof of this) and now have make endless job applications and go to interviews. (Ugh! Why can’t they just let us take an exam instead? I could get a job much easier that way.) The upside to this is that I have too much free time, which means that I have more time to spend writing and blogging as well as finally catching up on some of the TV shows I’ve been meaning to watch and play some of the games that have been sitting in my Steam library for far too long *cough* Mass Effect *cough* or even read the books in my ever expanding ‘to read’ pile.


Don’t worry, I’m not going to turn this into a whiny post about how it sucks to be unemployed or how I can’t find a job. I know that being negative and falling into a big black pit of despair won’t help me find a job. (After all, I can do something about it by actually applying for jobs and big black pits of despair tend to smell funny.) So I’m trying to stay positive and see it as an opportunity to try and get into a career that I want to get into. (Also, employers like confident people and whoever heard of a negative confident person?) It seems to be working out pretty okay so far. I’ve been unemployed for two weeks now and I’ve already had some interviews which is definitely a better situation to be in then the last time I was unemployed. I just really hope that it means that I won’t be unemployed for too long (having too much free time tends to send me crazy and I end up biting people. I’m not even kidding.) because as much as the idea of being a starving artist (or in my case writer) has been romanticised in our culture, there’s nothing glamorous about worrying about money and having enough to afford food so you can eat. *touches wood*

I think I am going to leave you there for now. You don’t need me to ramble on and on about how having a positive attitude makes such a difference to your life because it would be annoying and boring. Also, I’ve had a can of Relentless and it’s almost four in the morning (another upside to being unemployed is that you can stay up until stupid o’clock writing because you don’t have to get up for work the next day.) and I should probably try to get to sleep.



Hello Again, It’s Been Such A Long Time…


Okay, so it’s been a long time since my last update and this blog has kind of died. But I’m going to make an effort to revive it and maybe switch it around a bit. (For real this time, I promise.) There are reasons for my absence. Mostly because, as always, life has invariably gotten in the way, not only because I have a full-time grown up job (for the time being at least) and for other more personal reasons which I don’t want to get into. (Because I don’t like blogging about personal stuff.) But also because I have had a complete lack of inspiration as far as this blog has been concerned.

That’s not to say that I haven’t been writing, I’ve done loads. I mean, I’ve managed to get into a cycle where I’ve been working on three different things; my novel, another story related to my novel (which needs to be stitched together in some way because it isn’t written in order) and a short story which is completely unrelated to the novel and may end up on here once I’ve actually finished it. So you see I have sort of got myself back into a writing routine despite the distractions of Minecraft, Netflix and work.


Looking back on my last post, I think I’ve done rather well regarding my New Years resolutions. (Probably the closest I’ve come to actually keeping them.) I mean ,I’ve gotten into a (semi) regular writing routine, (I now have a good incentive to get it finished, well forfeit) I’m halfway through my online course and I’m working on getting back into a regular blogging routine. As for The Silmarallion, I fully intend to read it once I’ve made my way through my pile of unread books. (Which seems to be getting smaller.)

Well, I think that’s enough of me blathering on, I’m sure that I’ll think of something more interesting to blog about other than my current lack of blogging in the future.

Just Another New Year Related Post…

Okay, so it’s finally 2015, and I know it’s a few weeks late, but  after all the busy excitement that was Christmas and New Year, it’s time to take a breather and reflect back on the, um, interesting year that was 2014. Don’t worry this isn’t going to be a gushy post about how 2014 was such an incredible year for me (because quite frankly, it was a mixed bag) and I’m not going to go on rabbit on about it being new year, new me. (If you really wanted to change something, why wait until New Year to do it? Just saying.)

Anyway, yes New Year. It’s generally the time to make New Year resolutions and forget all about them by February. As you can probably tell by the last paragraph, I’m not one for making New Year resolutions. Also, when I do, I tend to make them around my birthday because I find I’m more likely to keep them, it’s weird. But this year, just because I can, I am going to make an exception and make a couple of simple (and hopefully easy to keep) resolutions. So in no particular order *cue fanfair*, they are:

1. To get back into a regular writing habit.

2. To get back into a regular blogging routine.

3. Finish my online novel writing course.

4. Read The Silmarillion and actually finish it this time.

There. I think those are all very doable and realistic goals. I really want to get back to a semi regular blogging routine because I have a lot of ideas for this blog and the direction I want to take it in. Also, I miss having a regular writing habit and I can’t let my characters all fall into oblivion now can I? Besides, I know that finishing the first draft is only half the battle but it’s still better than having yet another unfinished novel lying forgotten on my laptop. And by finishing something I’ve started, I know I’m already doing better than the people who keep saying they want to write but never actually start. Right?

Well, I think that’s it from me for the time being. Sorry for yet another brief rambling post I will try and get back to a regular blogging pattern again. I know I’ve been saying that for months now, but it’s hard trying to fit writing around work and seeing friends.

Dragon Age and a Mandatory Life Update


Okay, so I have been extremely busy for the past week and it’s meant that I have had to put my writing on the back burner. This is partly due to the fact that Christmas is coming up and I’ve had to get presents and things sorted. But also because I started my new job last week and am currently completing my training, which has been very mentally draining. (Though I think I’m starting to get the hang of it now) Also, I have been immersed in Dragon Age: Inquisition.

I don’t want to dedicate the whole post to Dragon Age because I haven’t got that far through the main quest yet and I don’t want to spoil it for those who are waiting for it to be patched or are getting it for Christmas. (and I can’t decide who to romance. Though if it goes by all my other DA romances,it’ll probably end in disaster) But I am enjoying it so far, even though the game lags on my poor laptop and I’ve encountered a few bugs, one that almost made the game unplayable. (But luckily found a work around.) It does feel a little bit like an MMO with some of the little fetch quests you have to do (I hate fetch quests) but I am getting to the point where I’ve started getting attached to the characters. (Dorian and Iron Bull are my BFFs and Varric is my bro.)


Anyway, enough about Dragon Age, now it’s time for a life update. So, I’ve finally got a job and I am doing the training. It was a bit overwhelming at first, but now I think I’m starting to get the hang of it. The thing is that it’s full time and quite brain-stretching (in a good way) so when I come home, I’m completely tired (I am hoping I’ll get used to it though) which means that I haven’t had as much time to write my novel. Especially as I needed to focus on my training as I have had to revise for assessments for the first time in about three years. (Which I passed. So I am theoretically now fully qualified.) Also, with Christmas coming up, I won’t have much time to write because I’ll e spending it with friends and family/ keeping up my Christmas tradition of spending the day reading and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so that I can watch the Doctor Who Christmas special. (It won’t be good. The Christmas specials are rarely good.)


But after Christmas, I should be fine. Hopefully, by then I will have gotten into some kind of routine and gotten used to my job so that I won’t feel so overwhelmed. Once I do that, I can find the time to write my novel and, who knows? actually finish it. There’s no way I am going to just let my characters fall into oblivion and I don’t want the past year to be a complete waste of time. Whilst the job I’ve got is not what I want to do, I still want to pursue my writing and I can do that now by actually having money to pay for things like electricity and food.

And I think that’s it. I haven’t got anything else left to say except that hopefully I will update my blog more often and I hope you all have a Merry Christmas.

Doctor Who and Another Confession…

twelfth doctor

Okay so I haven’t written about the new series of Doctor Who on purpose. With a new Doctor, I thought it would be better to watch the new series before blogging my opinion. And now that series 8 is over.

Overall, I like Capaldi’s Doctor. He’s a breath of fresh air from the previous bouncy Doctors. He’s grumpy and a lot darker than eleven. Pete Capaldi isn’t the problem. *sigh* The problem is that it just doesn’t feel like Doctor Who any more.

The thing is, since the show’s revival, Doctor Who was almost always compulsive viewing. It was a show that you could have theories about and discuss them with other people. It’s always been the TV equivalent of a warm hug to me, but it increasingly doesn’t feel like that any more. It’s getting tired, and there are a lot of things that I find problematic about the show, like the way the Moff treats the female characters. (FYI Moff, you don’t need to constantly sexualise lesbians, it already happens way too much in the media. Also, in case you haven’t realised, most women want more than a boyfriend/husband and babies.) Oh, and I wished they would stop with the mysterious female character series arc that they seem to like so much. It gets boring after a while. Also, they did nothing to improve Clara’s character and I didn’t care about her leaving because she never had an actual personality. Her relationship with Mr Pink needed more time to develop as it felt too rushed and not believable.


But this doesn’t mean that I’m ready to give up on Doctor Who just yet. It’s become entrenched in my life as much as Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter have. It’d be weird to not have it in my life. But, I don’t want to encourage shoddy writing by buying the DVDs and watching the show. Ah dilemma!

I think that’s enough of my thoughts on Doctor Who, that’s pretty much all I can write about them without repeating myself anyway. In other news, I’ve officially failed at NaNoWriMo. The work experience thing that I had to do to keep the Job Centre happy ended up being more hours than I anticipated (I spent four weeks, working full time for less than minimum wage. Yeah, I know. But I’m not going to rant about it because it will just make me angrier.) so by the time I’d get home, I was too tired to do anything aside from eat and sleep. It’s a lame excuse I know, but tiredness kills creativity (It’s a fact.) and I’ve fallen way too far behind to even hope to catch up with my word count now. On the plus side, I did manage to get a couple of chapters written that would have taken me much longer to write had I not taken part. So in the long run, maybe I didn’t fail at all?

I’m going to go with that.

In other news, things are starting to look up on the job front. In that I’ve actually been offered a short term contract. I don’t want to talk too much about it until I have a fixed start date (hopefully, soon!) and whilst it isn’t my dream job, it’ll be my first job where I’m being paid more than minimum wage so it’s still a huge deal to me. Also, it will take a huge weight off my shoulders and whilst it means organising my time slightly differently so that I can find something more permanent, it’ll be miles better than staying on JSA and having the Job Centre breathing down my neck all the time.

I think I’d better leave it there to be honest. I don’t have anything much more to say. But hopefully things are starting to improve. Once again, I’m sorry for neglecting my blog. It’s kind of hard to get back into the swing of posting things on a regular basis, but I will try. Though if you don’t hear from me in a while, it’s because Dragon Age: Inquisition is coming out on Friday and I’ll likely be playing that forever.

It’s That Time of Year Again…


It’s coming towards the end of October and it can only mean one thing, that the scariest, most stressful (for some) time of year is almost upon us. It’s fun but frustrating, it sends you crazy but we still do it. Some of us EVERY year (not me unfortunately) and some of us win whilst others fail (not quite so) miserably.

Yes, folks it’s NaNoWriMo!

*cue screams, cheers and looks of confusion*

For those of you who don’t know, NaNoWriMo (Or National Writing Month) is when thousands of writers all over the world write 50,000 words of a novel during the month of November the idea being that you make time to write 1665 words a day. It also gives you permission to cast away any insecurities you have about your writing and write really terrible prose because you don’t have time to write the same sentence over and over six billion times until you get it just perfect. Besides, it’s only a first draft, you can edit it all in December after you realise you’ve left it too late to do any Christmas shopping.



Why am I telling you this? Well, because I’m taking part. (Who needs sanity anyway?) I’m not starting a new story (although I have a few ideas for some.) and I’m just going to continue on with my current manuscript. It’s sort of cheating I guess, but never mind. Also it will be interesting, since I have to do some work experience for the first two weeks of November but I can fit it around that. Hell, the first time I took part, I was in my third year of uni, had two assignments to finish right slap bang in the middle and still managed to reach 50,000 words. So it is doable.

Anyway, I digress. One of the things that NaNoWriMo taught me to do (and something that I still do.) is to never edit until you have finished the thing that you’re writing. It may sound obvious, but how many of us have tried to edit as we go, spending ages polishing the beginning and never actually finishing anything? I feel it takes the a lot of the pressure off the first draft if I just write the words that pop into my head. It’s very freeing and allows you just to focus on your ideas and the story you want to tell rather than the words. I mean, sure the words are important, but you can make them all pretty and articulate later.


Another thing that I learnt from doing NaNoWriMo is the importance of telling your friends and family about it (it does eat away at your social life and you kind of need to let them know what you’re doing.) because if you tell someone that you’re writing a novel, they will probably occasionally ask you about it and how it’s going. It helps because then you feel as though you have to finish it at the very least to avoid awkward conversations about how you never got past writing the fifth chapter.

So yeah, let me know if you’re also going to take part in NaNoWriMo, maybe we can share our tears and triumphs as the month progresses. Sorry, I haven’t been posting as regularly as I should be lately, it’s kind of difficult to get back into the habit of things.

Blog Block Strikes Again…


I googled Birthday Cat and found this…

Okay, so I seem to still be suffering from my bout of blog block and I’m not sure why. I mean, there’s a tonne of things I could blog about, I had my 25th birthday a week ago (thanks to everyone who helped me celebrate it by the way. As for those who couldn’t for whatever reason, you were there in spirit.) and it was great. I guess I could write about what I’ve learnt in that time (not an awful lot, I must admit.) and get all reflective about life and the past year (it has been a bit of a chaotic one, I guess) or I could write about my thoughts on Matilda when I watched it the other day and all the happy nostalgia it brought back. I’ve tried, but neither of those things particularly interest me right now. (Though Matilda was brilliant.)

I dunno, I think the problem stems from two places. The first is that I have way too many ideas for posts and when I try to write about them, I get bored. The other is that I’m still a little unsure about the direction I want this blog to take. I mean, I really want to switch things up a bit (short stories will be coming at some point.) but I’m also wondering whether I should have a blog that’s a little more focused. (The answer is probably yes. But I like writing about a lot of different things.) Another problem is the fact that I’m working on a lot of things at once (Something that I’ve only started doing writing wise in the past year.) so I still have a couple of short stories I haven’t finished  and a load that need editing and re-writing as well as the story I kinda want to publish on here. (The first draft is finished. I just need to redraft it because I’m trying something different) I’m also trying to finish the first draft of my gorram novel which is proving more frustrating and stressful then anything. (Mostly, because I have a lot of things I want to change and also I’m a little indecisive about what direction I want the plot to go in. Curse my indecisiveness.)


I’m not really sure why I’ve started writing so much in the past year. It might have been because I had to write a lot for my internship and I tend to find that the more I write, the more ideas I have to write about. (I guess that’s why my old creative writing lecturers meant when there’s no such thing as writer’s block.) This is the whole reason for this post I guess. I dunno, I guess having writer’s block when writing for the internet is no different for when you write for yourself, you still lose the momentum of writing every day, except with novel writing, your characters fall into the abyss and you walk around with terrible terrible guilt for weeks.

Talking about writing, I’ve started a novel writing course. It was a birthday gift from my parents. I’ve only completed one of the modules so far. But it’s been really useful. It’s reinforced some of the things I’ve already learnt from my degree as well as teaching me new things, such as not writing when I’m tired. (Which I’m not totally doing right not. *shifty eyes*) It;s also keeping my passion for writing alive (It sort of become more of a habit. Something that I have to do so that I can sleep at night.) and I actually feel like I’m learning something which is always good.


Um, also on a life related note, my housemate (Hi, Matt!) is starting a Dungeons and Dragons campaign, I’m really looking forward to it because it’s going to be interesting how everyone’s characters will play off each other. I am actually playing a female character this time which is a first for me as I usually play male characters for some unknown reason. (I dunno what that says about me. It’s just what happens to come out of my head, I guess.) I’m playing a Drow (Yeah, my DM loves me) warlock. I won’t go into the back story here because this post is starting to get rather long and rambling, and there’s some aspects of my character I don’t want the others to find out about yet.

I think that’s about it for now. Sorry for the rambling, unfocused nature of this post, I guess that’s what happens when you start writing with blog block.