I Will Be Blogging More Often I Promise and Other Stories…

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Okay, so I know it’s a far too long since my last post and I keep promising to get back into a regular blogging routine. But I really will this time. I pinky promise. (You can’t break a pink promise. If you do, it makes you the worst person in the world, or so I am told.)

If I had posted this a little bit closer to New Year, this would have been your standard customary reflection on 2015 and hopes for 2016 post. (I’m not making resolutions this year because I never keep them and well,if you want to change, why wait til New Years to do it?)  But as it happens, life as usual got in the way and in between spending time with friends and family during the Festive Season and attempting to be a responsible adult, (Huh? When did THAT happen?) I just never got round to it until now. As New Year was two weeks ago, my original post no longer seems like it would be relevant so now you have this (very) self-indulgent post instead.

So, what have I been doing in the months that I’ve been neglecting this blog?

Well, mostly I’ve been really busy with work (the run up to Christmas was crazy busy) and I’ve been working on my current novel as well as a short story (that I still need to finish). I also spent November completing NaNoWriMo. I actually managed to reach 50,000 words whilst having a full time job. Despite the fact that pretty much all of those 50,000 words are pretty awful and some of the worst I’ve ever written, (up there with my teenage emo poetry phase) I consider this to be my biggest achievement of 2015 (aside from not dying) because I honestly didn’t think I’d have the energy to write 50,000 words whilst working 35 hours a week. But I managed it (it made me crazier than the past NaNos I participated in) and although the words I wrote were awful, (I’m not being modest here. I honestly can’t look at it) I’ve written 50,000 words of a story that wouldn’t have been written if I hadn’t done it.

So you see whilst I went on a rather longer hiatus, (longer than I originally intended) I was still busy writing. It just meant that I spent more time on my writing projects and actually get closer to finishing something. (That’s my main goal. Not just this year but in general.) I guess it didn’t help that I had a chronic case of blog block (Yeah, yeah I know what you’re thinking. Writer’s Block is just an excuse writers use when they can’t be bothered to write.) and had far too many ideas as to what direction I wanted this blog to go in. (The fact that it never had a strong focus to begin with probably didn’t help.) But now I’ve got a pretty good idea on the sort of topics I want to talk about and now I have plenty of time to actually post on a regular basis once I’ve gotten back into a routine. (I may even post some short stories on here at some point. Ssh! I’m not promising anything though.)

So what else has happened since I last posted on here?

Well, 2016 did not start as smoothly as I would have liked. My fixed term contract did not get extended, so I am now officially unemployed. The downside to this is, apart from worrying about money, that I now have too much free time (and there is such a thing as too much free time. Trust me. This blog is living proof of this) and now have make endless job applications and go to interviews. (Ugh! Why can’t they just let us take an exam instead? I could get a job much easier that way.) The upside to this is that I have too much free time, which means that I have more time to spend writing and blogging as well as finally catching up on some of the TV shows I’ve been meaning to watch and play some of the games that have been sitting in my Steam library for far too long *cough* Mass Effect *cough* or even read the books in my ever expanding ‘to read’ pile.

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Don’t worry, I’m not going to turn this into a whiny post about how it sucks to be unemployed or how I can’t find a job. I know that being negative and falling into a big black pit of despair won’t help me find a job. (After all, I can do something about it by actually applying for jobs and big black pits of despair tend to smell funny.) So I’m trying to stay positive and see it as an opportunity to try and get into a career that I want to get into. (Also, employers like confident people and whoever heard of a negative confident person?) It seems to be working out pretty okay so far. I’ve been unemployed for two weeks now and I’ve already had some interviews which is definitely a better situation to be in then the last time I was unemployed. I just really hope that it means that I won’t be unemployed for too long (having too much free time tends to send me crazy and I end up biting people. I’m not even kidding.) because as much as the idea of being a starving artist (or in my case writer) has been romanticised in our culture, there’s nothing glamorous about worrying about money and having enough to afford food so you can eat. *touches wood*

I think I am going to leave you there for now. You don’t need me to ramble on and on about how having a positive attitude makes such a difference to your life because it would be annoying and boring. Also, I’ve had a can of Relentless and it’s almost four in the morning (another upside to being unemployed is that you can stay up until stupid o’clock writing because you don’t have to get up for work the next day.) and I should probably try to get to sleep.

 

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Hello Again, It’s Been Such A Long Time…

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Okay, so it’s been a long time since my last update and this blog has kind of died. But I’m going to make an effort to revive it and maybe switch it around a bit. (For real this time, I promise.) There are reasons for my absence. Mostly because, as always, life has invariably gotten in the way, not only because I have a full-time grown up job (for the time being at least) and for other more personal reasons which I don’t want to get into. (Because I don’t like blogging about personal stuff.) But also because I have had a complete lack of inspiration as far as this blog has been concerned.

That’s not to say that I haven’t been writing, I’ve done loads. I mean, I’ve managed to get into a cycle where I’ve been working on three different things; my novel, another story related to my novel (which needs to be stitched together in some way because it isn’t written in order) and a short story which is completely unrelated to the novel and may end up on here once I’ve actually finished it. So you see I have sort of got myself back into a writing routine despite the distractions of Minecraft, Netflix and work.

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Looking back on my last post, I think I’ve done rather well regarding my New Years resolutions. (Probably the closest I’ve come to actually keeping them.) I mean ,I’ve gotten into a (semi) regular writing routine, (I now have a good incentive to get it finished, well forfeit) I’m halfway through my online course and I’m working on getting back into a regular blogging routine. As for The Silmarallion, I fully intend to read it once I’ve made my way through my pile of unread books. (Which seems to be getting smaller.)

Well, I think that’s enough of me blathering on, I’m sure that I’ll think of something more interesting to blog about other than my current lack of blogging in the future.

Doctor Who and Another Confession…

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Okay so I haven’t written about the new series of Doctor Who on purpose. With a new Doctor, I thought it would be better to watch the new series before blogging my opinion. And now that series 8 is over.

Overall, I like Capaldi’s Doctor. He’s a breath of fresh air from the previous bouncy Doctors. He’s grumpy and a lot darker than eleven. Pete Capaldi isn’t the problem. *sigh* The problem is that it just doesn’t feel like Doctor Who any more.

The thing is, since the show’s revival, Doctor Who was almost always compulsive viewing. It was a show that you could have theories about and discuss them with other people. It’s always been the TV equivalent of a warm hug to me, but it increasingly doesn’t feel like that any more. It’s getting tired, and there are a lot of things that I find problematic about the show, like the way the Moff treats the female characters. (FYI Moff, you don’t need to constantly sexualise lesbians, it already happens way too much in the media. Also, in case you haven’t realised, most women want more than a boyfriend/husband and babies.) Oh, and I wished they would stop with the mysterious female character series arc that they seem to like so much. It gets boring after a while. Also, they did nothing to improve Clara’s character and I didn’t care about her leaving because she never had an actual personality. Her relationship with Mr Pink needed more time to develop as it felt too rushed and not believable.

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But this doesn’t mean that I’m ready to give up on Doctor Who just yet. It’s become entrenched in my life as much as Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter have. It’d be weird to not have it in my life. But, I don’t want to encourage shoddy writing by buying the DVDs and watching the show. Ah dilemma!

I think that’s enough of my thoughts on Doctor Who, that’s pretty much all I can write about them without repeating myself anyway. In other news, I’ve officially failed at NaNoWriMo. The work experience thing that I had to do to keep the Job Centre happy ended up being more hours than I anticipated (I spent four weeks, working full time for less than minimum wage. Yeah, I know. But I’m not going to rant about it because it will just make me angrier.) so by the time I’d get home, I was too tired to do anything aside from eat and sleep. It’s a lame excuse I know, but tiredness kills creativity (It’s a fact.) and I’ve fallen way too far behind to even hope to catch up with my word count now. On the plus side, I did manage to get a couple of chapters written that would have taken me much longer to write had I not taken part. So in the long run, maybe I didn’t fail at all?

I’m going to go with that.

In other news, things are starting to look up on the job front. In that I’ve actually been offered a short term contract. I don’t want to talk too much about it until I have a fixed start date (hopefully, soon!) and whilst it isn’t my dream job, it’ll be my first job where I’m being paid more than minimum wage so it’s still a huge deal to me. Also, it will take a huge weight off my shoulders and whilst it means organising my time slightly differently so that I can find something more permanent, it’ll be miles better than staying on JSA and having the Job Centre breathing down my neck all the time.

I think I’d better leave it there to be honest. I don’t have anything much more to say. But hopefully things are starting to improve. Once again, I’m sorry for neglecting my blog. It’s kind of hard to get back into the swing of posting things on a regular basis, but I will try. Though if you don’t hear from me in a while, it’s because Dragon Age: Inquisition is coming out on Friday and I’ll likely be playing that forever.

Going Home for a Week…

Okay, so I missed last week’s post. In defense I was quite busy, but more on that later. Anyway, I’m not sure what this post was going to be about. I had something completely different in mind. But I can write about that another week.

So in other news, I finished my internship. It was a shame because I’ve learnt loads from doing it and I feel it’s improved my writing a lot — both in recognizing the words and phrases I use all the time and writing to a specific audience. (Normally, I just write for the hell of it and hope that people like it.) And hopefully, these skills will help me get a job. I dunno, we’ll see…

But I am going to miss going into the office and do work that I actually enjoyed doing. It was good to not get yelled at the moment I walked through the door or for something that was not my fault. (Something that happens a lot in retail, unfortunately. I don’t think people appreciate how stressful a retail job can be, especially when you have to deal with awkward customers who think you’re fobbing them off when you aren’t) But I guess I can’t work for free my whole life otherwise I’d end up desperately poor. Hopefully, I’ll be able to find paid work that I enjoy.

Anyway, after my internship finished. I went back home for a few days. Mostly to see my brother on his birthday and to catch up with friends. It’s good to get away from London sometimes. As much as I love living here (even though it’s expensive.) it is nice to get away from the city and breathe some less polluted air. It was great to catch up with my friends, many of whom I haven’t seen for a good few months and have a laugh. (Big plus: It wasn’t awkward.) Also it was good to get absolutely spoiled by my parents (That is one of the major perks of moving out, when you come home to visit, you get spoiled.) and to sit in front of the TV, cuddling the cat. (I miss having a pet in the house. Unless, you count my housemates… just kidding.) I also managed to squeeze some writing in too.

I’m not really sure where this post was going. I guess it’s just good to go home for a few days and catch up with the people you’ve known for years and see how much your home town has changed since you’ve last been there. (I can’t believe they’ve finally knocked down the old college.) It’s a weird feeling, coming home after a few months of being away. It’s like someone’s come along and altered your memory of the place, not in a big way, just in a few small details. It makes you appreciate it a little bit more. (Yes, even though there is never much happening in the Shire. Ever.) But maybe that’s just me getting older, I don’t know.

Well, I think I’ll getting all reflective on my hometown now. Sorry for such as rambling distracted post.